Moving Forward

Next month it will be one year since I relocated back to northern Idaho. This past week I have spent some time reflecting on my emotional, and spiritual growth. God has brought me through a lot this year and I’ve grown in areas I never thought possible to grow in. In addition to this reflection, it also time for me to make other changes in my life. I have held on to my job as a blanket, something comfortable and familiar in my time of transition. It is time to let that blanket go and move on to other things. I have found a new job in an industry I never thought I’d end up working in, airplane manufacturing. God is also working with me on another endeavor that I’ll announce when it becomes more fleshed out. God is good.

Poem

Pain too much to bear

Reality comes down

Face it or leave it

Rough Day

It was just the other day when I was so grateful for getting to spend more time with the women of my life. Today I felt sad. We went to Triple Play in Hayden because Lukas wanted to take his sister. I knew going into today that it was the last day and I didn’t want to face it. After putting on my happy face all week, today I was bursting at the seams with emotion and tears. There were several times I had to fight the emotion back so I wouldn’t break down in front of anyone. It felt good to be able to talk and laugh with them this week, but at the same time it felt too good to be true. The proof of that is that they are leaving at first light. There is also proof that I still care about my marriage and relationship with Melissa because part of me is missing, there is proof that my daughter being absent in my life is painful, because I wouldn’t feel this way otherwise. I wouldn’t trade this feeling for anything though, because it’s this feeling that keeps me honest. It’s this feeling that keeps me following after Christ. I pray that those who have lost this feeling or deny this feeling within themselves, find it again.

Photo of the Day May 29, 2021

Not only does our own sin change our individual perspective, but it alters the way we view others and their sin. Turn your light on!

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Photo of the Day May 26, 2021

For as long as I can remember I haven't liked the person I saw staring back at me when I looked in the mirror. It's been a journey to know myself, to understand me. I haven't gotten to the place where I want to be with that yet but I'm determined to get there. I measured my worth based on family, friends, children. I sought to please those around me in hopes that they would see in me what I hoped they would. I wanted so desperately for them to value me as much as I valued them. No matter how many times I was let down by those I put my hopes in, I continued to do what I knew wasn't working, or what was right.

It has been my relationship with God that has brought real truth and hope in my life. It seems like such a no brainer considering I've been a Christian for years, but it was the idols I didn't realize I had in my life that kept me distracted from the One relationship I needed the most. I am more content now than I've ever been thanks to God's hand in my life.

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