September 2107 I began film school. I graduate Summa Cum Laude at the end of this month. Being in school has created a rhythm probably very similar to that of working on a real film crew, milestones due each week, always practicing the craft. But I won’t have that in less then two weeks. I will have to create my own rhythm and milestones. This is scary.
Before film school I failed at creating my own goals and planning a direction for my life. But before school I was also a different man, with false ambitions and worldly desires. It’s still scary. I’m stepping into uncharted water, and I ill-equipped for the journey. Nevertheless…
Here is my immediate goals. I’ll make these public so that those of you that read this and feel compelled to check up on me, can help keep me accountable for them.
1) Finish the rewrite of “Love, Wendell.” This was supposed to be my final project in school, but because of COVID-19, I am blessed with an opportunity to develop the story further.
2) Create a non-profit community arts program. I won’t get into much detail about this, but I have some elaborate ideas on how to expand the arts here in Bakersfield.
I have lived a arts intensive lifestyle before (meaning done 100% art for my job) and focused 100% on business. Living all in on one side or the other didn’t work for me. I have to have balance, part of my life needs to be creative, the other part needs to have an everyday job. This will also be another new thing for me that scares me a little. I’ve never had balance in my life, in anything I’ve done. I have an addictive personality, so I’m usually all in. I’m praying I can find balance and become healthier. Pray for me.